What Tree Am I Waiting

  1. That whole part of the world
  2. where I won’t go any–
  3. more
  4. that whole separation
  5. that I won’t feel
  6. high in this house
  7. in this hemisphere
  8. in this artificial light
  9. that is artificial
  10. in the earliest morning; dark
  11. in pages and pens
  12. in an unfamiliar bed
  13. in the foot curl
  14. furniture
  15. each rumble
  16. when morning comes
  17. and it’s still morning
  18. and it’s still night
  19. I married a dead girl
  20. we were born in her
  21. bloom
  22. remember that fat bumblebee
  23. landed on a lamp
  24. I opened the doors
  25. and I forgot and the house
  26. got colder and colder
  27. where is this house
  28. the seam between boards
  29. merely gains my attention
  30. it’s dark and thin
  31. I monitor each situation
  32. my bladder growing full
  33. climb down climb up
  34. what tree am I waiting
  35. my whole life in weather
  36. waiting for my raft
  37. I’ll fly to another island
  38. I’ll take a train
  39. already I know
  40. it will hurt
  41. this is the hurt country
  42. I came here
  43. to hold the hurt like a bird
  44. like a tree
  45. traffic has rings
  46. we watch it whirl around
  47. damaging our night
  48. great continents hold
  49. the feelings and the ages
  50. what is mine
  51. going blind
  52. great masses of them
  53. not going home
  54. the country drew a line
  55. because of memory
  56. one said
  57. I feel my heart race ahead
  58. in eternity there is this ache
  59. there is this wakefulness